Alright im very discouraged here so im going to post because I need some ideas on what to do. ( ill try not to jump around too much ) First ive been doing KB for ... 4 months now ? Im very small 5'9 140 ibs 21 years old. The first 2 months were amazing. I became so strong, learnt so much. I was never happier. Now though..... im extremely bored. After 4 months I can barely doo a hook punch or an upercut. Ive only mastered the jab and cross. I have not SPARED ONCE!!. Though ive been waiting a month for my sparing gear.. I still doubt i would have spared if i had it. Is it wrong for me to a ask my sifu to train me like a real fighter ( even though i havnt spared so for all I know i suck )?. Also the attendance in classes have dropped like 70%. There were 4 or 5 fighters and now there is one ( a lady who holds an amature title ). All we do now is warmups , punch the bags, go home. I want drills, I want to be hit, I want to spare. I have a huge fear of sparing but i want to get started on it. I know he is a good trainer its just I DID KICKBOXING FOR THE CONTACT not the fitness ( seems like last month its been more kardio kickboxing then real full contact ) Unfortanatly untill i move, there is no other MA schools ( besides a Bjj one, but im not ready for that ) There are a few jkd ones and a karate one but they arnt contact. Argh so much rambling. We will see how tommoorow goes. I dont want to be treated special or given more attention i just want to learn how to F#$@cking fight Anyone else had this problem?