Giving a lifesign of sorts

Discussion in 'Mental Health and Addiction' started by Latikos, Sep 11, 2019.

  1. Latikos

    Latikos Valued Member

    Hey everybody!

    I'm sure hardly anyone noticed and even less cared, but nonetheless I decided to give a lifesign.
    Not dead.

    Now, the TLTR-version.

    I was having a rather crappy time.
    For months I hardly was going to my own training myself; I hardly managed doing the kids, but these I still did.
    Now - I am not going anymore.
    For some time.

    Last week one of my Chinchillas died.
    Comparable a minor thing, I admit that, but it kicked of an avalanche in my hand, and I had to make some decisions.
    Before I could change my mind again.

    To use a metaphor: For months, maybe even a couple of years, I was so concentrated on keeping the roof intact, that I didn't look out for the foundation.
    I used some workarounds to keep the roof sort of free of bigger leaks, but in the same time my foundation crumbled.

    So, obviously a house can't make it without a proper foundation. Nicest roof, destroy the foundation and the house will collapse.
    And if finally started to do exactly that.
    Without me actually noticing it.

    So I talked to the people in charge (trainings wise; after all I'd need someone to take over the kids in that time) and asked for a four to six break.
    I got six to eight; if that's even enough.
    The guy won't become a motivational speaker ;), but I got assured I get all the time I need.

    My plan is the following: I take some time off, so I don't have to think about training or anything sort of stressful.
    Without feeling bad about it; which would be a big difference to be before.

    The only things I will have to do during the next weeks are totally basics to daily routines.
    I will make sure to brush my teeth, feed the pets, make something to eat, ...
    So essentially things every normal person just does.
    I on the other hand have to re-learn to do things like that again routinely.

    In addition I will work on actually some hobbies and the such instead of sitting on the couch, considering them - just to do nothing.
    Again, without feeling bad about doing those, but not other things, I feel I should be doing.

    My final goal will be, to go to training every day in addition(!) to have a working daily routine again.
    It will probably take some time, but I made it work once, maybe I will manage a second time.
    That, and losing 20kg again, because my medication made me fat.

    So far I started by tidying up my flat, eating a little better then before (which, in fairness, isn't that hard) and just taking my time.

    I had my blood tested (I might be on my way to Hashimoto-disease, but so far I don't need to worry) and an ECG (nothing unusual).
    Which essentially also means, that a lot of my "secondary problems" are due to the medication; not sure whether that's good or bad :oops::rolleyes:

    So... yeah.
    Still alive.
    Still fighting.
    But a rather dumb fight.
    Not as much fun as training.
    And is also so... degrading, when I consider what other people have to go through.

    Maybe I should have actually taken some time for vacation and not just talking about it, who knows.
    I'd still like to lol
    But there's hope, I will make it back.

    Apparently some of the kids will be waiting (I told a few of the parents, with whom I have more to do, compared to the others).
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  2. Dead_pool

    Dead_pool Spes mea in nihil Deus MAP 2017 Moi Award

    Thanks for letting everyone here know, we're all rooting for you!

    It's sometimes good to miss training, it makes you realise why we do the things we do.

    The good thing is hashimotos is easily treated, and you don't live in America, #socialisedmedicineforthewin
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  3. Pretty In Pink

    Pretty In Pink Moved on MAP 2017 Gold Award

    One day at a time! You can do this! Take it as it comes and before you know it you'll be back to where you were but better!
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  4. Mitch

    Mitch Lord Mitch of MAP Admin

    I thought you'd gone quiet! Training should be fun, not pressure, so take time off. Maybe go back just a couple of times a week rather than every night?

    Most of all take care of yourself.

    And post more doggy pics :)
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  5. cloudz

    cloudz Valued Member

    nice to hear from you, best wishes
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  6. axelb

    axelb Master of Office Chair Fu

    Glad to see you posting on here!
    I hope you work things through and increment your way back to it.
    Don't worry about taking the time off training, it will always be there.

    another vote for more doggy pics :)
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  7. ned

    ned Valued Member

    Nothing more important than your health - eat and sleep well, enjoy your break. Plus one for doggy pics :)
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  8. Dead_pool

    Dead_pool Spes mea in nihil Deus MAP 2017 Moi Award

    Their was doggy pics?

    Another vote for more doggy pics!!!
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  9. Nachi

    Nachi Valued Member Supporter

    I was not very active here in the past months, so I didn't notice how long you've been missing, but I am glad you explained what happened. I hope you get back into the routine in time, without stressing yourself. Let us know how things go! :)
    Grond likes this.
  10. hewho

    hewho Valued Member

    look after yourself.
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