Depression Coming Back

I had to delete all the music that was making me emotional. Turns out it's half my music

 

I try to bleed out my emotions...

like a blister

 

I can use music to turn my mood around.

 

or comedy...

talking is best though; I concur.

 

I'm currently off work with PTSD and stress, and forcing myself to get out and go to the gym or go to training is really helping, if for no other reason than I'm not anxious for the time I'm there. It also gives some structure to your day and helps you sleep.
Sometimes I just don't feel like it, but if I make myself go I never regret it.

 

I'm sorry to hear you are having to go through that Ben.

I hope things improve for you soon.

 

Yes, I think I made a thread like this a few years back. And it was shut down; by you at my approval.

Perhaps peoples attitudes towards mental health problems are changing?

 

There is but there's still a long way to go.

 

I was at the grocery store last night, browsing around and taking my time and I was smiling about it because I was letting myself acknowledge that after about three years of work now, one and a half with a support system and medical help, I'm able to shop for food without having severe anxiety. For the longest time I had to B-Line my way to exactly what I wanted and get the hell out of there. It's the little things that are the best.

Having PTSD with the veteran status is always entertaining. Along with the mental health stigma that is attached, I also get the label of being violent and that I could flip at any moment and just start killing massive amounts of people. With some people it's like I'm not allowed to feel upset or angry at something and verbalize it like a normal person would, because to them that means I'm having a "moment" and might kill them. Nevermind that my PTSD creates crippling anxiety that leaves me unable to do things . . . . especially not rampaging out in a crowd to slay bodies.

Most violence associated with mental health, from schizophrenia to PTSD, also involve self medication with hard drugs from the individuals suffering. Guess who else is violent when on hard drugs . . . . . "normal people."

 

People tend to think of Rambo :/

 

But Rambo was being attacked and tortured by the police! His actions were appropriate xD

 

How and when do you bring up depression with someone you are dating? Or do you just pretend everything is fine until it is?

 

I wait until they're emotionally invested :evil:

 

Personally(! and without any experience with dating, but thinking about "normal" interactions with others) I think, that it's a subject, that's
a) not for everybody to know about.
Not everyone I talk to needs to know about my problems; be it depression or being socially awkward or just "weird" in a sense, that you should see a therapist to work on it.

I decided to let my MA-teachers know, because it's just fair, right and necessary to know.


b) In case I decide to make it a subject, the moment should b fitting and ideally be "just there", because somehow subject a lead to b lead to c until suddenly it seems totally naturally to talk about depression (or whatever; see above) and how oneself has it and how it affects one.

And that still goes, even if people can just *see*, that there is something weird about me.
I don't care, if people see that I have trouble being around people, being scared, uncomfortable or having issues getting cues.
They want to judge me? Please, go ahead.
They ask questions? Depending on how and who(!) asks, I try and answer them.


When I was struggling with my depression (even though only a light case compare to others) or have my "depression days" nowadays, it's the same.

I won't walk around going "Hey, btw, I have depression", just because it's not of anybodies business.
In case I get closer with someone (friendship. I guess a romantic relationship would be the same, no idea), and there is moment it fits, I can still tell them about it.

To come out with it "right away" or "too soon" for me(! Again: My *personal* view! It's not how others should or have to see it as well!) is a bit like I would define myself only about my sickness/ problems/ whatever - something I just don't want.

I (along with everyone else) am more then just my depression, social awkwardness, whatever.